I said I would keep this blog up, but I guess I lied. Oopsie. But I'm going to from now on, so here is goes..
I have identity issues. I don't really know who I am opposed to who everyone wants me to be or who the world tells me that I am. And it is really difficult to sort through all of those lies to find the truth about who I really am. So here is the question of the day - Who are you really, Emily Kathryn Combs? That is a question that I can't really answer right now. I am hoping that when I go away to college and I meet new people and see different perspectives and ways of thinking that I will understand who I am and will be able to sort through all of the lies to find that real person, but for now I am stuck in this fog of not understanding and not knowing. There are so many things that I have told people that I like or don't like or want to do or don't want to do that are actually the complete opposite. Like law - I hate it. Politics? I don't honestly care about them all that much. I do care about human rights though like gun control and abortion and gay marriage. The color pink isn't all that bad, but I do still hate the color purple and sparkles for the most part. I still hate math and I love writing more than anything. I secretly do it all the time and am writing a book right now. (I bet that's something no one knew.) Truthfully, the one thing I know for sure about myself is that I am completely overwhelmed by nature and how beautiful it is. It is the most amazing thing in the entire world to me and when I'm surrounded by it, I feel at ease like I never do. I want the rest of my life to have something to do with nature and I want to be around it forever. That is all that I truly know about myself. It's crazy how you can build yourself up as being this certain person and then suddenly, you realize that that person is as far away from the real you as possible. But I'm going to find that real person some day. Some day soon.
